Tags: decision, family, friends
I have made a decision. This is the hardest decision that I have ever had to make. I have now just simply disowned my family, and re-owned them as friends. That is all they are to me now, best friends.
I have decided that it is best this way, as then it shouldn’t matter who falls out with who. As it is up to them. I just don’t want to be a part of it. So nobody is going to drag me into their chaotic lives any more.
I have also made an extremely hard decision to just put my entire childhood to the back of my mind. Nobody wants to share those memories any more, so it is the only choice I have. Don’t get me wrong, I have had some amazing times as a child with my entire family, but I can no longer share those memories with any of them, as it is just too heartbreaking. So as well as not having a family any more, I now do not have a childhood to remember.
It is so heartbreaking to think this way, but it is the only way to get me on the road to recovery from my depression. Yes it may seem unhealthy to oppress my entire childhood to the back of my mind, but it is the only choice I have left. If I don’t do this, I will end up pushing myself into an early grave. So please respect my decision. Although I no longer have a family, I have my now ex-family as best friends.
Tags: NaNoWriMo, NaNoWriMo 2013, writing
I’m sorry everybody, but the time you have dreaded is nearly upon us. November is National Novel Writing Month, and I like to participate every year. The reason you probably dread it, is because i am constantly updating you all on my word count progress. Although, this year should be less annoying, as it will hopefully take my mind off my depressing states of mind. So instead of my over exaggerated words of sorrow in my posts, you will have to put up with my NaNo novel progress. Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: My Life, NaNoWriMo, update
Hallo all, I hope you haven’t forgotten who I am? It seems hard to believe that I haven’t posted a blog post since July!
I would firstly like to apologise for my absence from blog writing, and my over participation in grumpy, moaning Facebook and twitter posts. I have had quite a tough year. My family seems to have crumbled, but are slowly finding their feet again. So as well as fighting my own demons, I have been fighting their as well. But anyway, enough of that talk. Read the rest of this entry »
Yes I have become what you said I would always become. I am a weird loner that always gets picked last.
But I have overcome so much also. I have overcome a huge chunk of my social anxiety that you left me with. I have learnt to forgive you for making my school life hell!
But there is still so much for me to overcome, still so many scars to heal. But you won’t win!
Even if at the end of things, you think you were right, just remember it was you that put me there, you = The Bullies
I have achieved so much, and you can never take that away from me. That is one thing you will never take!
Joining in with the tradition of 'Sunday roast' has to be one one of my favourite things about moving to England. In a cozy pub with a pint of ale or at home cooked with friends and a few glasses of wine, it's just the perfect way to make Sunday feel relaxing and fun and to completely forget you'll be back at work the next day.
Ever since I was a child, my parents always thought that I must be slightly deaf. I would always have the television up at a high volume. This confused me, because I could hear it perfectly clear at a lower volume, but I struggled to take in what was happening. I still have the TV up loud. Also my siblings and parents know that I always like to watch it in silence (without background noise).
I annoy them even more now that I can rewind the program I am watching (via freesat+) every time someone has spoken. I know this is annoying, but I can’t help it. i need to focus on the task in hand without distraction, or i won’t take any of it in.
Another prime example of people thinking I am deaf is when I am a passenger in a back of a car. I tend to turn off completely fro the driver and front passenger’s conversations, because i just can’t take it in with all the car engine’s noises.
I relate all this to my Dyspraxia. Does any of my Dyspraxic friends or blog readers experience the same sort of thing?
As most of you know, I stupidly signed up to take part in Cancer Research UK’s Shine Marathon. It is a 26 mile walking event taking place at night. The event date is the 28th September 2013. I will be joining a friend doing this. He also has other friends joining us too.
So far I have not done too much training for it. I hope to do some decent training from now on though. I started off this training by walking around Cambridge for 10 Miles with only one toilet break. I managed to do it in 4 and a half hours, which I think was good enough for my first attempt.
Next weekend, I plan to do at least another 10 miles. I also plan to walk nearly every evening during the week. If anybody wants to join me for one of my short walks or even my long walks, then feel free. You are more than welcome.
With that, I suppose I better go for another walk this afternoon.
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There will be a day when my legs won’t carry me anymore, they won’t drag me anymore, when death comes knocking at it’s door.
It could be hours, it could be days, it could be months, it could be years, but on that day, I will be here, waiting for it to take me away from my fears.
A Poem by Tommy G
- 120g butter, softened
- 450g grated Cheddar cheese
- 250g plain flour
- 1 teaspoon salt
- 1/4 teaspoon chilli powder (optional)
Prep: 15 mins |Cook: 15 mins
|1.||Preheat the oven to 200 C / Gas mark 6. Grease a baking tray.|
|2.||In a large bowl cream butter and cheese. Stir in flour and salt; mix well. On a lightly floured surface, roll the dough out to 1.25cm in thickness. Cut into 5cm strips and sprinkle with chilli powder, if desired. Place strips on prepared baking tray 3 to 4cm apart.|
|3.||Bake in the preheated oven for 10 to 15 minutes, or until crisp.|